Wednesday, March 26, 2014
A New Plan (or One Day at a Time)
Thank you all so very much for your love, support, kindness, and good advice last week. I really needed it.
I have spent a lot of time thinking and praying and soul-searching about this whole thing. On Monday, I started to make a plan. It had things like write 100 pages a month, create a schedule and stick with it, and publish 2-3 books a year. All good things. But I started to feel stressed and depressed again.
More soul-searching commenced.
Then yesterday while walking at the pond, I had an epiphany. I knew what I needed to do. And it starts with letting go of the things I can't control. (Surprise, surprise. You'd think I would have learned that through all my years of addiction recovery, but sometimes my knowledge doesn't transfer well to other areas of my life.)
To make a long story short, here is my new plan:
I will let go of my need for worldly rewards.
I will surround myself with beauty.
I will nurture and protect my creativity.
I will create wonderful things, joyfully, courageously, and with reckless abandon.
I will offer my creations to the world in the best way I can find.
I will not worry about the size of my audience.
I will allow creating to be its own reward.
I will not worry about the opinions of others.
I will let go of guilt.
I will praise my efforts each day.
I will try new things.
I will do stuff that makes me happy.
I will remember that changing old habits and false beliefs takes time. I will be patient with the process.
I said that I would have to find a way to hope and dream again, and I think this is the way.
Most of these will need a specific plan for how I will accomplish it. That will come. But this is a great start. As soon as I committed myself to this plan, I churned out five pages on my novel yesterday!
So, again, thanks to you all! I will keep you posted.
Posted by Angie at 4:49 PM