Success only flourishes in perseverance -- ceaseless, restless perseverance.
--Baron Manfred Von Richtofen

Wednesday, March 26, 2014

A New Plan (or One Day at a Time)

Thank you! 

Thank you all so very much for your love, support, kindness, and good advice last week. I really needed it.

I have spent a lot of time thinking and praying and soul-searching about this whole thing. On Monday, I started to make a plan. It had things like write 100 pages a month, create a schedule and stick with it, and publish 2-3 books a year. All good things. But I started to feel stressed and depressed again.

More soul-searching commenced.

Then yesterday while walking at the pond, I had an epiphany. I knew what I needed to do. And it starts with letting go of the things I can't control. (Surprise, surprise. You'd think I would have learned that through all my years of addiction recovery, but sometimes my knowledge doesn't transfer well to other areas of my life.)

To make a long story short, here is my new plan:

I will let go of my need for worldly rewards.

I will surround myself with beauty.

I will nurture and protect my creativity.

I will create wonderful things, joyfully, courageously, and with reckless abandon.

I will offer my creations to the world in the best way I can find.

I will not worry about the size of my audience.

I will allow creating to be its own reward.

I will not worry about the opinions of others.

I will let go of guilt.

I will praise my efforts each day.

I will try new things.

I will do stuff that makes me happy.

I will remember that changing old habits and false beliefs takes time. I will be patient with the process.

I said that I would have to find a way to hope and dream again, and I think this is the way.

Most of these will need a specific plan for how I will accomplish it. That will come. But this is a great start. As soon as I committed myself to this plan, I churned out five pages on my novel yesterday!

So, again, thanks to you all! I will keep you posted.


Terry W. Ervin II said...

It's good to see that you've found a positive way forward :)

Debra Erfert said...

Great list! Very, very doable.

Angie said...

Thanks, Terry and Debra. I appreciate all your support!

Thom said...

Way to go, Angie! As Spock said in "Amok Time", "Having is often not as fulfilling as wanting", or something to that effect (I'm too lazy to look it up at the moment). If the pursuit of your dreams isn't making you happy, then it's not very likely that achieving them will, either. It's so hard not to get caught in that "worldly success" trap and forget to enjoy the process. Hopefully your new approach will help you enjoy things more. I'll be watching with interest, as I suspect your list applies to me, also.

Angie said...

Thanks so much, Thom!